Posted in Uncategorized on September 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It feels like winter, but it’s not. The temp. on my computer desktop says 45 degrees. Lately I’ve been waking up feeling like a character in one of my stories. My head is numb with the chill of the room, yet my body is warm from my electric blanket.
I know it is a little ways [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on February 4, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
…blogging is best used by people who have a lot of friends and an exciting life. It’s hard to keep up with this thing because there’s never anything to say. I have nothing new. No exciting stories to share. And no reason for putting things on here other than…well…I guess I don’t really have a [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on February 2, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
How could he know this new dawn’s light
Would change his life forever?
Set sail to sea but pulled off course
Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid, always afraid
Of the things he’s feeling
He could just be gone
He would just sail on
He’ll just sail on
How can I be lost
If I’ve got nowhere to go?
Searched for [...]
Posted in Journal, Uncategorized on January 12, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Sleeping pill at 10pm. Awoke at 12am. Laid awake until about two. And after those two hours decided to get up and do something other than lay and not sleep. Got a bite to eat, watched something silly on tv, something that wasn’t enough to excite my brain and further keep me from sleep, and [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on January 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I find myself lost in a sort of “out of focus world” every day. This happens if I try to think any harder than reality, or my brain it seems, permits. I try explaining it as being completely conscious that you are unable to consciously understand that you have no concentration. It’s sort of like [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on January 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
So. School Monday. Same place, same things being felt. I’m not sure how to look at this semester differently because it is, essentially, going to be exactly the same. The difference lies in how I look at it and how I make myself feel about it. But that’s much harder than it appears.
I just finished [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on December 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I still have my disagreements with my teacher’s statement, but I have discovered that just because an English teacher thinks something doesn’t mean it is true. It’s opinion. Nothing more, nothing less. I just got back from picking up my final paper from him; I had to since he hadn’t finished grading them until after [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on December 11, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Just went out with Larry to get some food. While we were eating he told me something that my English teacher talked to him about, involving me. It was short, I’m sure, but the words weigh heavy on my mind (there’s irony there; you’ll get it in a sec). My teacher told Larry:
“Clint’s too deep. [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on November 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Although it isn’t possible to pin-point the cause, it is possible to narrow it down. But that narrowing only goes so far. It offers no hope for the cure, no reason for the pain. It tells no secrets to aid you in your struggle. This place is your head, and within it is the cause [...]
Posted in Uncategorized on November 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
3:54 am, still awake.
I have just become aware of how many times I’ve started a post like that. The digits are always different, but the words following are always the same.
I took sleeping pills before lying down around 1:30 or so (1:30 because I woke up today at almost 6 pm, so it’s been hard [...]
