It’s getting harder to make posts. This always happens, and always leads to a very empty couple of months as far as entries are concerned. My moods move in strange waves that can leave me feeling delighted or hopeful, or empty with no reason to do much more than breathe…and sometimes…
I’m getting increasingly nervous around [...]
Archive for January, 2009
Friendly, yet inept…
Posted in Journal on January 16, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I need to learn how to read.
Posted in Journal, Uncategorized on January 12, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Sleeping pill at 10pm. Awoke at 12am. Laid awake until about two. And after those two hours decided to get up and do something other than lay and not sleep. Got a bite to eat, watched something silly on tv, something that wasn’t enough to excite my brain and further keep me from sleep, and [...]
I never know what to call these things. Or if I should add periods after the title.
Posted in Uncategorized on January 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I find myself lost in a sort of “out of focus world” every day. This happens if I try to think any harder than reality, or my brain it seems, permits. I try explaining it as being completely conscious that you are unable to consciously understand that you have no concentration. It’s sort of like [...]
With the truth in mind, let me write lies
Posted in Uncategorized on January 10, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
So. School Monday. Same place, same things being felt. I’m not sure how to look at this semester differently because it is, essentially, going to be exactly the same. The difference lies in how I look at it and how I make myself feel about it. But that’s much harder than it appears.
I just finished [...]
