Although it isn’t possible to pin-point the cause, it is possible to narrow it down. But that narrowing only goes so far. It offers no hope for the cure, no reason for the pain. It tells no secrets to aid you in your struggle. This place is your head, and within it is the cause [...]
Archive for November, 2008
Given up the ghost
Posted in Uncategorized on November 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
A day between days
Posted in Uncategorized on November 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
3:54 am, still awake.
I have just become aware of how many times I’ve started a post like that. The digits are always different, but the words following are always the same.
I took sleeping pills before lying down around 1:30 or so (1:30 because I woke up today at almost 6 pm, so it’s been hard [...]
How I wish
Posted in Uncategorized on November 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
If I leave right now I could probably make it to school 5-10 mins late. I’ll have to walk into class after it’s started, find a new seat since mine will probably be taken, and painstakingly guess for the rest of the period what the many strangers in the class are thinking. I didn’t sleep [...]
No guarantees
Posted in Uncategorized on November 7, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I’m mildly-tolerant of some things (I won’t lie and say I see everyone and everything equally) but there is a definite line that I draw. Take for instance this person’s view on depression and its relation to religion:
“God has nothing to do with depression, you inherited depression and all other physical ailments when Adam disobeyed [...]
I am ever strong against the all-knowing
Posted in Journal on November 5, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The new medicine is affecting me in strange ways; I feel numb, I feel nothing, yet I feel everything. The last few days my mood has been “stable”, a rather grim term for emotional well-being, but today is almost like everything that is already wrong chemically is in flux. I woke up feeling a little [...]
Look within to calm the storm
Posted in Uncategorized on November 2, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
To sum-up Friday’s rather…disorganized post.
We all have our so-called “breaking points.” And on the worst of days, perhaps the worst of all times, we see things in black and white; a dangerous, but also accomplishing, sort of system. Yes, it can cause problems to speak your mind, if only due to hurting other people’s feelings, [...]
How is your life today?
Posted in Uncategorized on November 1, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Missed two doses of my medicine today. And for two reasons.
I wanted to sleep-in
I forgot that I can’t ever sleep-in because I have to take medication at 8am every morning
For all the oblivious:
I can’t take any headache/cold medicine because they will either induce a panic attack or death, and because none of them work anyway. [...]
