…I don’t need it today.
Your good intent is acknowledged, but it is not what I need.
.
I don’t expect you to understand, I only expect your trust.
Archive for October, 2008
Your comfort…
Posted in Uncategorized on October 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Published…sort of
Posted in Journal, Poetry, Story on October 30, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
A literary E-Zine. I may have spoken of it on here in the past. They found me on Writer’s Cafe and asked me to submit some of my work, so I did. The publisher just sent me an e-mail regarding my submissions and informed me the issue has been completed and will be released sometime [...]
No way out of here…
Posted in Uncategorized on October 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I can’t do it. I can’t do anything…I’m falling behind in school, I’m an emotional wreck, I can’t even fake a smile anymore. I wish…I wish for a lot of things.
Each “down” is worse than the last, and yet this feeling is unchanging. It’s constant, it’s always with me. I’ll never be rid of it…It’s [...]
Come crash into me…
Posted in Uncategorized on October 27, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
3:54 am. Went to bed early, around 8 or so I think, but woke up as soon as the house started to get noisier. So, I’ve been up since around 9 or so and will be until I get back from school.
I’ve felt like I’m having a panic attack all night, I’m completely on edge. [...]
Become The Catalyst
Posted in Journal on October 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
7 am. Sitting here, blowing my nose every 20 seconds or so, (no exaggeration) wondering why I’m being neglected by sleep. Possibility: I decided to not take Xanax last night because it affects my focus and concentration during the day; so much that I fail to communicate properly and am so “zoned out” that I [...]
Become one with nothing
Posted in Uncategorized on October 21, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Just woke up. 1:27 pm. I don’t think I got to sleep until about 5 or 6 this morning. My medicine doesn’t seem to be working very well, which is something I’ve grown accustomed to. Sick, very sick. Unable to take medicine because I take medicine. I get the feeling that I won’t be on [...]
These eyes can hardly see a dream known as life
Posted in Journal on October 20, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
FINALLY! I have my own computer! It’s exciting, something I am very pleased with. It really helps with school, even though last night I didn’t type up my report until about midnight; a report that I was told to “re-write“ by Friday. Told, of course, by English teacher because it’s, once again, too deep. I use the [...]
Purge the emasculated stigma of medicament
Posted in Journal on October 18, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
“Slithering slow and serpentine, coiled around your spine
My willing victim so sublime, one taste and you are mine
Did you remember to feed me while I was broken and bleeding?
Preaching words obsidian on the wings of shattered men
The sightless wait, oblivious to the scourge that stains their hands
All you feel and all you do, the medication [...]
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops…to zero.
Posted in Journal on October 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I feel like I’m already dead, someone just needs to convince my body to stop moving…
Not going to school tomorrow because I’m irresponsible and am afraid to sit in my English class…
Had a nervous breakdown-ish thing the other day, and no one knew it. It was at a gas station in Orrville.
The only person who [...]
…and sadness will sear
Posted in Uncategorized on October 16, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
“My flesh is ripped at daily
It’s the cross I bear
I feel it tear out my insides
A pain so heavy I could collapse
I feel it just may kill me
I must brave through this storm.”
